Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Meme Meme Meme Just one really...

A Meme from The princesss's pages at Carpe Diem. 

Using the third letter of your first name, answer the following questions.  The third letter of my first name is R.  Remember, Leigh is my middle name.

1. Famous Singer-Rod Stewart, I could have really dated myself and said Rick Springfield.

2. Four letter word-Rant

3. Street-Rodeo Drive-never been there, don't wanna go.

4. Color- Ruby Red, two R words in one.  :)

5. Gifts/presents-Rubies from Rodeo Drive.  Hehehe

6. Vehicle-Rondevous, a Honda?  Whatever.

7. Things in a souvenir shop-Red Wings Jersey

8. Boy's name-Robert

9. Girl's name-Rebecca

10. Movie Title-Rough Riders

11. Drink-RobRoy

12. Occupation-Receptionist

13. Celebrity-Rosanne Barr-or whatever her name is now.

14. Magazine-Redbook

15. U.S. City-Roscommon, okay it's actually a small town, but I drew a blank.

16. Pro Sports-Red Wings Hockey, or was I supposed to name a sport? Ummm.....Russian Roulette?  I can't think of one.

17. Fruit-Raspberries

18. Reason for being late for work-Really good dream.  (Mmmm) Okay, Okay, how about running a Red Light ticket.  ;(

19. Something you threw away-Running a Red Light ticket!   NO, not really, I've  never had a ticket-well, a little speeding ticket for 80mph in a 75mph zone-Yes, it was a long time ago.

20. Something you shout-Recess!! 

21. Cartoon character-RoadRunner

22. Song title-Rain, Rain, go away.  By Breaking Benjamin

    Well there you have it.  Three entries in one day.  I have to tell you, I really miss doing this and will try really hard to get my time planned out so that I keep up with entries, reading and commenting.  I've got about 20 minutes, so I'm going to tame some of the e-mails I've got.  Thanks for stopping by....

Time for an entry!

Well, Greetings!!                                                                                   I'm very happy to be able to join you this afternoon.  I have the rest of the day off.  It's a rare treat.  I've been scheduled 7 days a week for the last month or so and this is the closest thing to a day off, so I'm treating myself to some extra computer time.  I usually work in the morning and then have 4 hours off in the early afternoon, so that's when I head to the library.  After that I have a 3 hour shift in the evening, 4pm to 7pm.  But usually one day a week, every other week it's on Sunday, I only have one morning shift.  That's today, this week. 

    Well, it looks as though the computer at the house will remain non-functioning.  Because of thin doors, and male voices that "carry", I've discovered that my brother is glad it no longer works, and that my nephew had no intentions of getting it repaired.(it's his computer)  I'm really the only one who used it the majority of the time, so it's not important to them.  If it had been the TV or the X-Box that would have been a whole different story.  Expressing my disappointment and hurt at the fact that they think so little of me is a fruitless endeavor, but I'm just so Pissed that I could Spit.  I actually had a more somber entry planned and prewritten, but the heck with that.  It was depressing and I'm not really in a depressed mood.  I've decided to go ahead, save my money, get a used computer, pay for my own internet connection, and keep it in my room.  I've written down exactly what I will pay for rent and utilities, what I won't be paying for anymore(cable internet connection), and that if they don't like it-if that is not enough-I'll go find someplace else to live.  Actually I can't do that, because my name is on the lease and if theyscrew up, the landlord can hold me responsible.  So I pretty much have to bide my time, see how things go over the winter, get my computer and plan on whether I'll be leaving Aug 1st, 2008.  There aren't really that many places around here that I could afford, so..... 

    Other than that there really hasn't been too much going on in my life.  My car is running well, the gas prices piss me off, I need an oil change.  I've been working about 36 to 40 hours a week, so I'll be able to put some money away and maybe have a laptop by the first of the year.  I talked to my Son the other night, he's doing well.  His work at school and his job, plus the extra work he does for the Art Dept. head, keep him more than busy.  He's happy doing the things he loves, and I am so glad for him.  Actually he said he's been too busy, as one of the things he's been working on was some set decoration for a play group that is visiting the area(Cleveland-Akron).  He may get to go on the road with them over the summer, with the possibility of going to Europe.  Wow, that's an opportunity he'll want to see come to fruition.  I'm very proud of him. 

    I feel sorry for the Trick-or-Treaters tonight.  It's cold and drizzly here.  With the temperatures expected to only be in the 40's the next couple of days, I guess it's time to drag out the jackets, and get the boots in the car with my winter emergency kit.  I spend alot of time on the road, even though I usually only drive about 15 miles away, lots of it is empty road with very few houses.  And the cell phone reception isn't always great in some of those areas. 

    I guess that's about it for now.  This seems kind of short, and it's been so long since I have done an entry-6 days-I wanted to write a nice long "letter".   Maybe I'll go find a meme to do and have 3 entries in one day!  Thanks for stopping by, and I promise that I'll get a routine down and write more.....

                                                Happy Halloween,  Leigh

A Greeting!

                ~Happy Halloween~

  I'll come back in a little while to do an entry.  Just wanted to get this out there!!  Heading to the library in Roscommon after I go get something to eat.  I'll have more time there to write.                           Spooky Smiles,  Leigh

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Sneaking in for a Thankful Thursday.

   I've got a break between shifts and a computer at the library for alittle while, so I thought I'd post an entry and my Thankful Thursdays.  Those first-

1.  The library and their computers.  As long as I can get this done before my time is up.  Actually, they'll let me stay past the hour if there's noone waiting.  :)

2. That I have the time in the afternoons to do this. 

3. That my cold is finally getting better.  My nose looks like Rudolph's.  :(

4. For Gas stations that have a punch card for a free cup of coffee after 8 or 10 purchases, today's was free.  And yummy-regular with Almond Toffee creamer.  I know that I always mention coffee in some form, but I really do love it that much.  :)

    It looks like the computer situation is grim.  Something about the CD Drive and the disk for the external modem not being read.  It's not my computer, so I'll just have to wait and see.  At least until I can figure something else out.  For right now, I'll have to come to the library, their computers are "Really" fast here!   Wow! 

   Like I said, I've been suffering one of those colds that attack the head and chest.  It's letting up now, I've been able to breathe through my nose all day.  I'll have to take that nasty tasting cough medicine for a couple more nights. 

    My time is up for today, unless I go to the other library in Roscommon.  Thanks for stopping by.....

Sunday, October 21, 2007

~Requiem for a computer-maybe~

My computer is not functioning at the moment, and may never work again.  :(   That means that I have to rely on the library until I can get things worked out.   I'll try to stop by, read and comment, when I can, make an entry here, too. 

She signs out till....   Thanks for stopping by.....

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

The Day After the Night Before...

::sigh::  I could be having sex right now...  Oh wait, wrong journal!   Hehehe.  

   Hi there, I'm going to be brave and attempt to get this entry in before work.  Hopefully, "they" have gotten the hiccups in the system fixed, and this will post. 

   Yesterday was my 52nd Birthday.  I didn't say anything about it, wasn't in the frame of mind to really celebrate much.  I was hoping to just let it slip by as quietly as possible.  Things were still kind of tense here at home and well......  sometimes when I expect good things to happen they don't.  Yesterday was a normal workday for me with the exception of going to the Secretary of State office for my license plate renewal.  Some of us have to get new plates this year and I was dreading to see what the plate number was going to be.  I never memorized the old one.  To this day, I have a slip of paper in my wallet so that I could copy it.  I really lucked out.  I have a plate numbber that I'll be able to remember and was in and out of there in like 15 minutes!!!

   I got a couple nice little gifts from the clients that knew it was my birthday and a call from my son.  Pretty much all that I expected.  I got home, and !surprise! there on the table was a cake(Chocolate!) and cards and a pint of Southern Comfort.   We had a little party, I drank about 3/4 of the pint and things are better here, now.   Don't get me wrong, Bro and Potsey still drive me over the edge, piss me off, confound me, aggravate me, irritate me, but they're my closest family, expect for my Son.   And I love them.  I have to Thank them for the very nice gesture, it was just right!

   I wanted to write about some of my experiences in my life, but couldn't find a way to express them that I was comfortable with.  Then I came upon the idea of a story or essay(way).  Writing in the third person is a new experience for me.  Very different, looking at her(me) with a more objective eye.  As I was sitting in the restaurant after breakfast yesterday(my birthday gift to me), I just started scribbling, very disjointed thoughts, episodes of my life.  I  guess I need to bone up on the writing process alittle and see what comes out of this.  I never pictured myself as any kind of writer, and I think this is as far as the urge will go.  Just writing here.  If I get out of hand, just let me know. 

   It's time to go get ready for work.  Just wanted to share(maybe TMI in that first sentence) some of my thoughts this morning.  Thanks for stopping by.....

Monday, October 15, 2007

    She sits at the Nurse's Station, in one of those chairs on wheels.  Staring.  Knowing the truth in her heart, but listening to the commotion that follows the Code Blue that was initiated when she walked out of her husbands' room and called the nurse.  She knows.  Her whole world has just been tossed in the air.  As she watches the pieces falling, she wonders what to do now.  Greg, an orderly that has known them for many years as a result of her husbands many hospital stays, walks toward her.  He removes his gloves and shakes his head.  As he hugs her and whispers that it's over, she tells him that she knows.  The minute she walked into the room, she knew.  This wasn't really a state of shock, it was more disbelief.  The surreal situation she's faced with, is not something she'd dared to think about, to believe could happen.  The overwhelming feeling of guilt descends.  How, when her husband had just died, could she dare to feel this way?  Why, after the years of despondency, after the hopelessnes she'd felt for so long, now, does her heart open to possibilities?  Where is the grief, the mourning, the sadness, the decency to show her husband, of 17 years, the respect he deserves at this time?  Her mind is racing, reeling.  The nurse approaches, "Is there anyone I can call for you?"  For ME?  No.  There's noone here for me.  "We'll have to notify his family, the funeral director, my son."  But as she writes down the numbers, she realizes that she can't stay there.  She can't stay in the hospital wing, and proceed with the requisite phone calls, responsibilities, not yet.  "I need ten minutes, a walk, and can we hold off the phone calls till then?"  There's no need for urgency now.  They need to fill out the inevitable paperwork, clean the body, remove the equipment from the room.  "Of course.  Let me know when you're ready."  She walks to the banks of elevators, pushes the down button and waits.  Moving as if by rote, she enters the elevator, descends to the Lobby floor, walks through the entrance she has traversed many times over the years.  Never in her life, has she had this sense of unreality, this feeling of a lack of direction.  Maybe this is shock after all.  Not the shock of discovering her husband, or the shock of sudden grief.  Her shock is directly correlated to her reactions, her response to this most tragic event.  She can compare it to the imagery of a bird, held captive in a cage for many years, finding that the door has been left open.  She can pass through this cage door with nothing and noone to stop her.  Yet, as the bird has no idea where to fly to, just the urge to fly away, so does she wander in her mind.  The concept of life beyond what she has known for so many years, has eluded her.  She never dared hope such a life could exist.  Yet here it was.  She has to focus on the realities of the situation.  There are so many details to be attended to.  Many difficult conversations, decisions to be made.  Would they know?  Would they be able to see it on her face, the guilt of her emotions?  Would they think any less of her than they already did?  Did it, at this late date, matter?

    It was an unusually warm and sunny day for mid-March.  Walking outdoors in her shirtsleeves, she follows the sidewalk around the hospital to the smoking bench in the rear.  Again, that sense of unreality encroaches.  The smoking bench is warmed by a sun that doesn't belong in the bowl of the sky, on this day of endings.  She sits down, and is soon joined by Greg, who has come outdoors to regain his composure after the ordeal upstairs.  He asks her "What now?"  And as she shrugs her shoulders, she realizes that "what now" is a question she doesn't have an answer for. 

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Rambling thoughts, tonight.

   I don't know why I pick out a Font and Size, this computer never(okay, hardly ever) does what I want it to anyway...

   I survived the whole concert episode.  Not very well, but survived it.  Potsey and Deuce(his cousin on his mom's side) went.  That's right, on top of everything else, I came home from work to find out that they went(insert very BAD language here).  The nasty inner child in me wants to scream about how unfair this all has been,  and to express my feelings.  But, nah, I'm not going to lower myself.  I'm going to remember the advice that my (ex)stepmother gave to me, and actually apply it in this instance.  Her advice came to me on my pending move to Ohio, and meeting my future husbands family (who in the end weren't worth it).  She said "Be nice, don't be yourself".   And one of the mottos I've always tried to live by comes to mind right now-If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.  This definitely applies here.  Right now, they're out at the bonfire, and I'd love to go outside and sit by the fire, but I just can't trust myself to keep my dignity.  So, I thought I'd post an entry.  Then, I'm going to go soak in the tub, use my new body butter all over, it's called Country Pear and has a lovely fragrance.  Then go to bed.  I have a 6:30am shift and the extra sleep will do me good.  IF I can get to sleep and stay that way till 4:30 or 5:00am. 

   I tried to take care of some errands yesterday afternoon without much luck, so I went to Walmart and spent some money on myself.  :)  I tried to go get my license plates, but there was like 12 people waiting and I only had 2 hours to do things and shop.  I've got till Tuesday, so I'll try again on Monday or Tuesday.   I tried to go pay my car insurance, but the agent took yesterday off-left a nice note on the door, but... :(   Failing at the important stuff, I went and did my grocery shopping and then hit the aisles with treats for me!  I got 2 CD's, one of them was on sale so I had enough for both of them.  Then I found the aforementioned body butter and a light cologne spray to match.  It's very fresh and light.  I bought a new eyeliner pencil, but have to wait for the eyeshadow I want till next week.  Also, next week, I'm ordering a couple of the books I've been waiting to get.  Remember, I now have extra money that I AM NOT paying in at the house. (she snickers, wickedly)  No, I am not going to feel guilty about this, either. 

   No new turkey sightings, but I did see a couple deer on my way to work this morning.  I always hold my breath till I get past them, fearing a meeting of tragic proportions.  One of my readers left a comment about one of those turkeys for Thanksgiving.  Nope, have you ever heard the expression "she's a tough old bird"?  Well, that's what this would be.  Tough.  These birds put on alot of miles in search of sustinence.  I'll take one of the grain-fed stand around in a pen all day, birds over wild any day.  Most of the hunters that take a turkey only want to keep the carcass-stuff it with the tail all fanned out.  More a trophy than dinner.  Whatever. 

   I've been having trouble leaving comments on other journals, so if you haven't seen one from me, it's not that I haven't visited, it's just this poor old puter acting up.  I just hope that I can get this entry to post.  One of these days, I'm seriously going to have to try to find a better one.  Or something.

   Well, I hear the bathtub calling me, so I'll close this for now.  Thanks for stopping by.....

Thursday, October 11, 2007

More Turkeys and Thankfuls

   That's right, just like the Subject line says-More Turkeys.  No funny stories to go along with them, just the turkeys.  On my way to work, I saw 2 more, much smaller "flocks" of turkeys,  they all stayed along the side of the road, thankfully.  I had no time for parades.  After that shift, I returned home for lunch and a couple hour break.  When I left for my late afternoon shift, I saw 27 turkeys on the lawn at the Community Center across the street.  Yeah, I counted them.  I don't think I've ever seen that many turkeys in one day. 

   Potsey didn't find his keys till this evening.  He had taken them to the woods, when he went hunting night before last.  They had fallen out of his friends truck.  He was so lucky to find them today.  The putz. 

   My Thankful Thursday goes like this-

1. Getting my hours back at work.  SSSHHHHH, don't tell(yet)

2. The cooler weather that has finally arrived.  Now, it's time for  sweatshirts, chili and cornbread, and hot spiced cider!  Yay!

3. My CD collection.  I've been listening to alot of them that I haven't heard in awhile.  I do miss the radio, though.  Come on Saturday.

4. All my friends and readers who left so many thoughtful comments.  It really means alot to me. 

5. And last but not least, yes Sunny here it is again, Coffee.  Actually, it's instant cappachino this week.  Dark Rich Chocolate.  Yummy.

   I had an early shift this morning, so I'm signing off and turning in.  It may mean that I'm up early tomorrow, but I'm beat tonight.  Thanks for stopping by.....

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Breaking News!

   Traffic came to a screeching halt earlier this morning in Downtown Smalltown Northern Michigan.  The cause of the delay was reported by this eyewitness minutes ago.

    " Well there I was, returning home from giving Potsey a ride to work-he's lost his keys again, the putz.  Anyways, here I am tooling down South 5th Street, when I notice brake lights directly in front of me.  I slowed and prepared to stop, the speed demon behind me doing the same thing-lucky me!  When I spyed the cause of the stopped traffic(from both directions), I burst out laughing.  It was like a little parade, badly lined up and moving slowly.  Apparently too slowly for the irritated driver in front of me, who laid on his horn.  Well that (of course) caused confusion in the line crossing the street, some of them turning around and trying to retreat to the side they had just exited.  Well, the added delay became too much for "Mr. Road Rage in the Big SUV".  He proceeded to inch his way forward, causing more destruction of the parade line, scattering the participants around and behind him as well as further afield into both lanes of traffic.  Much to the dismay of the other drivers, who up till this point had been patiently waiting for the roadway to clear, the delay continued.  It lasted no more than 2 minutes, but under the circumstances, a very long 2 minutes.  Finally, the parade has divided to both sides of the street and traffic resumed it's normal pace.  After wiping my eyes from laughing so hard, I proceeded to my turn a half-block along the street and noticed another parade forming.  Some participants, not in any hurry to get moving, continued to scratch the ground and ignore the obvious leader who was chasing some of them into line.  Ah well, more traffic tie-ups have been predicted by this eye-witness, as I drive on down my block, to the safety of  my own driveway."   The cause of all this commotion?  Wild Turkeys out for Breakfast in Downtown Smalltown Northern Michigan! 

   I was considering what to start this journal entry with while I was returning from dropping Potsey off at work, when this real life joke on humanity unfolded before my very own eyes.  This time of year, they're everywhere, searching for the added fat layers to warmthem through the winter months.  And yes, these flocks(?) of turkeys can number in the dozens (50-60), and no, you don't want to honk the horn at them, as they are crossing the road.  They will scatter and lengthen the time you have to wait for the road to clear. 

  I am doing better, still mourning the fact that I can't go to the concert, but in a lighter frame of mind.  And actually plotting some sneaky scheming.(she snickers wickedly)  Maybe I should phrase this as an ommision of  recent developments, but(hehe) I got my client and the lost hours, and pay, back.  Yay!  The agency that she was supposed to have provide services, has declined to accept her as a client.  Arrangements have been made for family members to assist her.  Anyway, things are back to normal, paywise.  And the ommision of current developments?  I'm not telling anyone here at home!  That's right, they think I'll be pretty much broke, and contributing their fair share, now.  If I was really evil, I'd let them foot more than that, but that overbearing angel on my shoulder won't allow me to be that unfair.(Bitch)  I'm gonna get my books, my CD's, and some treats for me, sock some money away, and continue the charade, till I'm damn good and ready to change the situation.  I really did have a serious discussion about this with Bro and he admitted that after being out of cash for so long, it felt good to be a little irresponsible.  But yes, he would take on more of the financial responsibilty, also informing Potsey that he's got to pay up on the cable and his share of expenses.  So, sshhh, the joke's on them.

   I've got to go get ready for work, adding a sweatshirt as more normal temperatures for this time of year have arrived, along with some rain.   Just thought I'd give you the Breaking News!  Thanks for stopping by.....

Saturday, October 6, 2007

The way things are. My mood- More resigned.

   I don't know why I bother selecting a font, size and color, here.  The old puter just can't seem to handle it. ::sigh::  At least it still types and functions for the most part.

   After a long night of tossing and turning, with my mind bouncing all over the place, the Devil and the Angel on my shoulders coming to blows in their fight to influence my decisions, I got up this morning and did what I had to do, before I changed my mind.  I called the radio station and told them I couldn't use the tickets.  That way they have time to give them away to someone else(the lucky dog).  The DJ was very nice, sorry you can't come to the show--yadda, yadda.

   I am so sick and tired of doing the right thing all the time.  The Angel on my shoulder is pretty powerful(overbearing bitch).  So, now I'm sitting here feeling just as sad, but more resigned about it.  There are times in your life that the good things just aren't supposed to happen.  The consequences of that can be pretty steep, trying to be foolish and go against what you know to be the best thing to do.  I have enough guilt in my life as it is.  Yes, I am very hard on myself, but ... I don't know how to finish that sentence.  I learned a long time ago not to ask for things from others.  That just leads to disappointment, when an unfulfilled request goes by the wayside.  So I just don't ask.  And most of the time I manage to live with that okay. 

   So now, I'm going to work on getting past this.  I won't be listening to the radio, they play the bands alot and are promoting the hell out of this show.  I've got some very nice CD's with relaxing instrumental music, and some Classic Rock that I haven't listened to in a long time, Kansas is my favorite.  So, I'll play those, keep to myself, work on some of the things I need to be doing(now that I'll have a lighter schedule), go for some walks and seek some peace.  Telling anyone here at the house, how I feel about things will only lead to more discord.  I'm one of those people that just can't handle the stress.  I lived with that for way too many years.  So, I'll write, get my feelings down on paper, in my private journals, meditate and read something inspirational.  And just fight to be okay. 

  I want to thank you all for being here, for being supportive.  Reaching out into this world is so vital to my days, reading and writing here is very thereputic and soothing.  I'm going to return you to your regularly scheduled journal entries, now.  Maybe I'll go for a walk this morning and write about how beautiful it is with all the leaves changing colors and the fresh breeze blowing-that I can see out my window even now. 

Thanks for stopping by...


Friday, October 5, 2007

Struggling with emotions, tonight.

   I don't usually write this kind of entry, but I am so disappointed with my life right now.  I am extremely frustrated, unhappy, and if I thought it would help-I'd scream.  But I know it won't.  I guess I just need to talk about it some. 

   On August 3rd, I won tickets to go see Three Days Grace, Breaking Benjamin, Seether, and Skillet on Oct. 12th(next Friday).  Through the last two and a half months it was one of the things that kept me going, kept my hopes and spirits up, kept me looking forward.  It would have been the "First" concert show I would have ever gotten to see in my life.  It was my birthday present to me. I was So excited.

   Yeah, you guessed it, I can't go.

   I just can't afford to go.  I found out today that I'll be losing 1/3 of my weekly hours, and of course, 1/3 of my paychecks.  I am SO frustrated.  One of my clients has to move to another agency for care.  She cried today as she told me.  I told her we'd keep in touch, and see each other often, trying to soothe her and all I can think about is "myself".  I am ashamed of that. 

   The whole summer, I had made plans to do a few things, take a couple weekends off.  EVERY single one of my plans had to be scrapped.  I kept thinking, well things will be better by the time the concert comes along, Bro will be back to work, the bills will be more under control, things settled.  (She laughs very sarcastically)  Yes, Bro is back to work, Potsey is working fulltime, and I am still footing the majority of the bills(they both make more than me).  They're too busy spending their money on Bow hunting equipment, trips to Vegas, paintball, steaks on the grill, partying, new CD's.  I am filled with an extreme amount of resentment right now.  They Both know how much I was looking forward to this.  They got to see Three Days Grace in January and have been telling me for 2 months-how much I am going to enjoy this.  They are Not UNaware of my financial contributions here, I've covered the cable/internet bill for 2 months(half Potsey's responsibility), he's been too busy blowing his money.  I don't want to lose internet, so....

   At this point, I don't know what I'm going to do.  Other than be miserable.  It seems like there will be plenty of that for the next week or so.  I just can't write any more tonight, maybe I'll come back and explain alittle more clearly in a later entry.  I try to maintain a good attitude about things, try to remember my blessings (I do have many), but tonight-I just feel so crapped on and deserted by the people closest to me.  Bye for now...

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Thankful Thursday and a Meme

   I can't believe that it's been over a week since I've written.  I kept meaning to, had to leave for work, was too tired to make sense, it's too early to think straight, can't think of much to say, etc.  Actually, I've been in kind of a funk lately, most of the time.  Then the mood would pass and I'd be like, okay I'm feeling better now.  The moodiness just kept returning, and things just kept getting me down.  I have other journals for the pity parties, but didn't write much there, either.  Things have just been getting me down.  But enough of that for now. 

My Thankful Thursday list this week includes-

1. Friday being payday and tomorrow.  I hate being this broke! ;(  And I'm almost out of Coffee.

2. Coffee-of course.  Yes, I'm a caffeine addict.

3. Beautiful weather.  It's been sunny and warm, perfect clothes on the line days.  And then they smell SO good!

4. Fall colors.  They're just gorgeous right now, and make my drive to and from client's homes more enjoyable. 

5. The friend that will be lending me the 7th Harry Potter book.  I recently finished book 6 and can't wait till I can afford to buy it to read it, so she's bringing it over as soon as she's done.  Thanks Deb.

6. Being able to keep these moods I've been going through under control, and basically to myself.  I don't want to start any major wars here at home-yet!

   And now a meme!  This was done last week by the Princesss of Meme's at Carpe Diem.  The Ten Things you've been putting off.  As a disclaimer, I'd just like to say that I am a terrible procrastinator.  Then all of a sudden, I go on a get it all done binge, and have so many things going on that I just.......(chaos)

1. Doing this entry.  Half of the time, I just write on the fly and have to be in the right frame of mind to sit here and let my mind go.

2. Washing the inside windows of my car.  They are Yucko, but I Hate washing windows, anywhere.

3. Moving the furniture inmy room.  I do have a good reason for that.  I have been working 2 or 3 short shifts a day and they're broken up.  I might start at 6:30am and work 7 or 8 hours in a 13 hour period with a couple breaks of an hour or two.  Right now, in order to get my hours in, I don't even have any days off.  Some days I might only work 3 hours, but add in laundry, errands, other cleaning, and of course the shift is right in the middle of that day. 

4. Going to the eye doctor.  I haven't been in a couple years, but can't afford it right now.  I wear reading glasses, am far-sighted, but don't think it's changed much.

5. Getting my filebox organized.  I Hate paperwork, too.  I just kind of shove things in, till they won't shove any more.

6. Shaving my legs.  Oh, don't start-I'm going on 52 and have hardly any hair on my legs and no man to impress.  So ;(~

7. Getting out the winter comforter.  I will be doing this, washing it and hanging it out on the line.  I'm just not ready to put it on the bed yet.

8. Getting on the scales.  I've been indulging in some comfort foods lately and really am not ready to see what the damage is.

9. All kinds of little things that I put off till the last minute, laundry till there's only one pair of socks(TMI), getting the mail-none of the good stuff is ever for me, going to the grocery store, leaving for work, etc.

10. I really think I've run out of things to list.  Can I put this last one off till later????

   Well, if I want this to actually be posted on Thursday, I'd best  get moving.  Have a great Friday and weekend, everyone.  Thanks for stopping by....